Am I Trusting in the Waiting?

I've been working on a lot of projects recently and have multiple balls in the air at one time. It's been busy: working with references and applications for LightSys summer interns, trying to connect other interns with other mission organizations, talking to IT professionals who are feeling a calling/interest to missions IT, networking and partnering with like-minded organizations and people.

Recently it seems like my life has been partially composed of waiting for phone calls and emails to be returned and praying, "Lord, how do I answer this one?!?" And waiting. :)

Do you ever find your self anxiously waiting?  I was this evening, wondering how a couple of projects were going to turn out.  Was God going to work them out the way that I wanted them worked out?  Or were they going to work out not-so-well in my eyes?

And I started thinking of my parents.  They've been farming ever since I was born.

 (Photo by cousin Stephen)

And each year, Dad does his best to plant and fertilize the crops.  He works hard - working the fields at the best time and planting the seed at the best time.  And each year, the final outcome is determined by the Lord.

Talk about uncertainty!  Will it rain enough?  Will it rain too much? Will we get a late freeze that will damage the wheat crop?  Will we get a hail storm the week before harvest that will wipe out the crop (and our income for the year)? But year after year, Dad simply trusts God.

And sometimes the crops do fail.  And sometimes they fail multiple years in a row.  But the peace is still there if we are trusting God.

I was reminded of Psalm 4:7-8: You have put gladness in my heart, more than in the time that the crops flourished.  I will both lay me down in peace and sleep for thou, Lord, only makest me dwell in safety.

God is the only one who can truly make us rest and dwell in safety.  Am I trusting Him to work things for His glory?  Am I believing that He will do it?

How do you remind yourself to trust God?