Choosing.

I've been pretty down for the last two days. The teeth has been a huge part of it. Then, while I'm upset about that, everything else that I thought I'd forgiven myself for in the last 12 years comes back to haunt me. My car, my relationships, my job as an RA, my behavior towards my parents in high school.... Plus, I'm not feeling well physically right now.

I find myself acting like a spoiled child--knowing that God is able, but still wanting to do something about the situation in my own strength (but I can't, so I feel even worse).

I need to choose. I need to choose to have faith. To stand on what the Bible says. To believe in God's promises. To have faith in God. To hold up that shield of faith so I can stand against the enemy's attacks. Right now I'm sitting on my shield and pouting.

Please pray that I will stand.