I'm very confused tonight. I've been told twice in the past three days by strangers that "you seem like a person who listens before she talks." Those of you who know me know how incredulously wrong that is. But it gives me hope that God is still working in my life and actually making something of it. At the same time, I think I've been very inconsiderate of a lot of people recently. Inconsiderate and selfish. Of Pat, Eric, Rach, David and so many others.

And I don't know what to do. T. simply says, "What does God want you to do?" But God seems silent. I've been doing a lot of praying--for people, for situations, for projects. But I don't seem to hear anything.

That's not true. God's not silent. He keeps dropping notes that remind me that he cares. Like the letter that came in the mail today with a $100 check from a church youth group. Like the conversations with total strangers about the goodness of God. Like the invitation for a walk.

I don't know.